Life from the eyes of utter Loser

Many a times in life you realize that your life is stuck at a point of no return. All you are supposed to do is to wait. Wait for a window to open where in you could jump and continue your story. The time that you spend is the scariest of all. It is the time that you know you need to do something, but you don’t have an idea what needs to be done. So you end up waiting endlessly. Such a situation has occurred to me more often. As a matter of fact I am in one such time, waiting my heart out. Every moment there is a hope, when you take couple of step disappointment. There are questions that need to be answered. Yet, your state of mind does not allow you. You end up living a life of a dead man. Living a ‘life of dead man’ is worse and painful than living or being dead. A point where you are alive but not free to live. A point where you realize everything has come to a standstill and yet you breathe. Every breath you take loses its meaning. You are living a life of infinite level of incompleteness. Neither you nor people around could fill those empty blocks. You are in a war where you don’t know the next strike. You are ignorant of friend or a foe. At a point everyone seems like a friend and another they are all foe. Aimlessly you fly to the silver lining, only to know that it was covered by dark clouds too. All this pain and disappointment should have a meaning. Else you don’t deserve anything more.

Hypocrisy and Paradox - From the eyes of looser

In the room of Hypocrisy, I sit in the Execution chair. Thinking of execution, a task I need to accomplish without even thinking. I got no choice, but to do as being told. Why don't the people at top listen to People with them? Even if they do, do they really understand? How is a person supposed to do things, he disagree? Is this what we call civilization? Is it worth a living? There is paradox in modern day management, influenced by success story of a competitor, a partner or an organization. Does merely being a duplicate serves your objective? Are all the organizations governed by the same rules? Do we ever bother to evaluate the purpose? A life governed by rules, rules whose number and complexity increase exponentially with the advancement of Human Civilization. So do the flaws in those rules and people take advantages of it... Should we then stick to the rule of Jungle? Just one simple rule no flaw. At least you know your friend or foe. All the rules, irrespective of number, one common rule - 'The rule of the jungle' there are people who take advantage of other. Does this mean rule doesn't make sense? Think of the havoc if life were based on single rule! Every day you live home, you would not be sure if you would be able to meet you family again. The fact remains, no matter how hard to you try, there is always a misuse. There is always an 'Alpha' that influence the way your life. There would always be a King of The Jungle.

Close your eyes! May be you are alive

As I sit at 11 pm on my desk, trying to figure out the riddle that I could not find an answer, the thought stuck me "Close your eyes! May be you are alive..." We get so embraced in our day to day life that at times we forget if we are alive. Then, our mind starts to wander into a series of question like... Where we started from? Where are we heading too? Is these all I pursuit? Am I too quick to live? Am I too slow to cope up? Did I come to a halt altogether? I had been living my life quite fast. Looking for the short term perks in the form of awards, merits, position, passion... Suddenly, I stumbled onto life. I realized life isn't about what you gain, instead what you feel. I slowed to feel I am alive for the first time. The material in life didn't matter to me… Nor my awards; nor my merits; I felt the world in a new beat. A beat, which had kept me alive... I might look like a dreamer to few. To few more, a mad man in pursuit of nothing. For me I am alive... Isn't it? "When thy shall look at the world in a grain of sand, time shall come to a stand still. When time comes to a stand still thy shall meet the eternity... Eternity is thy pursuit... In thy shall lie thee..." In me you shall find my life. In my life you shall find what your looking for... For I have been living a complete life...

Life in a mirror of Paradox

Every man, right from birth, is search of Never lands. We all want to be in some imaginary place were things are our way. We all build dreams, some even work towards them. In the end would that matter? Did any leader really wanted to be a leader? The fact is, it neither your dream nor you objectives that shape you. It is the society that does to a large extend. Though you dream and objective plays a very large role in guiding you. You success is determined by the society. It is the society that make you our breaks you. What the societies expect? A million dollar question! The view of the society keeps changing. There is not definite answer for this. Yet Society could make you or break you. Why do we dream when it not us who play a role in realizing our dream? Did Gandhi want to be a national leader? Did Bill Gate want to be the richest man? Does you objectives ever play a role in shaping what we are? More over to turn the table over we need to understand what the society needs. To make a difference our objectives are handicap at hands of society. Wasn't Hitler a great leader? Didn't he achieve is his objective? Did he raise a nation from destruction of World War? He built a nation more advanced than the rest, but the society wanted it the other way. It is not what we feel right makes the difference. It is what the society thinks that make a different. The first thing to make a difference is to understand what the society thinks. We got to be cautious because the thoughts of society keep changing and the man is left in its mercy.

The Project and great learning experence

During my graduation we identified that our college lack a 'Quiz Buzzer'. To add to our challenge our college had very limited resource to buy one for the college. In addition, being science association secretary, I wanted a project for upcoming inter-colligate electronics fest. Looking at two objectives I came down to meet them both. First, we sat down on the drawing board and designed a blue-print. Then we had to present the design to our Principal and get the budget approval. Principal was impressed with my design and agreed to facilitate it. As always, one road block solved we could see the next. We needed two students to help me with my project, one to implement the design and other to get the components in the lowest price. Added to all this we could not use the lab after working hours. So we had to develop this in our lunch breaks. For two days we had to use our break time to show a working prototype. When the prototype was ready we were able to demonstrate it. In the mean time one our team member got the components with the best price. Then the third person set to out our design on general Purpose Component Board. This project was awarded at Electronic Fest and Science fest which followed that. Also, we used it for all our quiz competition after that in our college. We all had a feel of Buzzer round in quiz before we go for inter-colligate. I would like to thank my true friends Mahafooz and Rajneesh. They have stood with me in every step. Without their help I would not have achieved my dream for championship that aceadamic year. They filled me with courage at all points where I break. There was a point where I felt I will have to drop it. Not to forget the electronics lecturer Naveen who gave us the support when we needed it the most. Truely so, You could move a mountain- the thing is you need to have the right team.